Life Is Like A Boat

Nobody knows who I really am
I never felt this empty before
And if I ever need someone to come along,
Who’s gonna comfort me, and keep me strong?

We are all rowing the boat of fate
The waves keep on coming and we can’t escape
But if we ever get lost on our way
The waves would guide you through another day

dooku de iki o shiteru toomei ni natta mitai
kudayami ni omoe dakedo mekaku shisarete tadake

inori o sasagete atarashii hi o matsu
asayaka ni hikaru umi sono hate made

Nobody knows who I really am
Maybe they just don’t give a damn
But if I ever need someone to come along
I know you would follow me, and keep me strong

hito no kokoro wa utsuriyuku mukedashiteku naru
tsuki wa mada atarashii shuuki de mune o tsureteku

And every time I see your face
The ocean heaves up to my heart
You make me wanna strain at the oars, and soon
I can see the shore

Oh, I can see the shore
When will I see the shore?

I want you to know who I really am
I never thought I’d feel this way towards you
And if you ever need someone to come along,
I will follow you, and keep you strong

tabi wa mada tsuzuiteku odayakana hi mo
tsuki wa mata atarashii shuuki de ume o terashidasu

inori o sasagete atarashii hi o matsu
asayaka ni hikaru umi sono hate made

And every time I see your face
The ocean heaves up to my heart
You make me wanna strain at the oars, and soon
I can see the shore

Unmei no huneoko gi nami wa tsugi kara tsuki e to watashi-tachi o sou kedo
Sore mo suteki na tabi ne, dore mo suteki na tabi ne

Shizukana Yoruni

Shizukana Yoru ni; In the Quiet Night

shizukana kono yoru ni anata wo matteru no
ano toki wasureta hohoemi wo tori ni kite
are kara sukoshi dake jikan ga sugite
omoide ga yasashiku natta ne.

hoshi no furu basho de
anata ga waratte irukoto wo
itsumo negatteta
ima tookutemo
mata aeru yo ne

itsu kara hohoemi wa konna ni hakanakute
hitotsu no machigaide kowarete shimau kara
taisetsuna mono dake wo hikari ni kaete
tooi sora koete yuku tsuyosade

hoshi no furu basho e
omoi wo anata ni todoketai
itsumo soba ni iru
sono tsumetasa wo dakishimeru kara
ima toukutemo, kitto aerune

shizuka na yoru ni

English Translation

In this quiet night, I'm waiting for you
During that time, your smile has faded away
Now that a little time has passed,
Fond memories start to resurface.

At the place where stars fall,
I'm always wishing for your laughter.
Even though we're apart now
We can meet again, right?

From when has my smile faded this much
Since it was shattered by one mistake
Change only the precious things into light and
Go beyond the sky with fortitude.

To the place where stars fall,
I want my thoughts to reach you.
I am always by your side
Since I will embrace that coldness.
Even though we're apart now,
We will definitely be back together.

In the quiet night...

.......

well... it's been since a while i did last post in my blog..
there are so many things that have been going on recently... nothing that pleases me much... all the bad thing, worst case scenario.. arghh.. why the hell every bad thing that happen to me so fast.. after one another.. is there something wrong with me..? is there any big mistakes that i've done that i should be punished like this..?

i know that i've done many mistakes, sins... sometimes, it's out of my control.. everybody and i mean everyone in this world nowdays make mistakes.. but i dont deny that there are many others that have more problems, more sins and more headache than me.. but why? i know that He is testing me and in the other hand, that's the way that i pay for my sins that i've done in years.. but not as bad as now.. i'm not mad at Him for giving me this, but sometimes i felt it's too much.. i'm not as good as others.. sometimes i will be mad at myself when something bad happened.. not only for myself but to others to...

i dont really know what will happen to my life.. i tried to mould it as good as i can but nothing seems to be happening.. NONE OF IT..!!! what the fcuk happened in my life...!!!
err.. sorry for the emotional moment.. well, i dont think its neat tho story those of my problem in here.. just wanna do something that can take my mind out of it.. yare yare..

it's not like i dont to settle the problem of facing the facts, but when i do that.. it really sads me and sometimes it can make me angry.. it been already a few days, i rarely talk to my housemates and only if there's something i need or want to ask or they want, then i'll talk.. it's not like i dont want to talk or being happy with them, but if i do so.. may be it will someway or somehow, it will irritate them although it will happen uncounciosly.. i know they wont be mad.. but for me, its unappropriate...

i dont really know what to say right now... just ................................................

wHat a SurPriSE

well..my mom just called from home just now..
my dad's surgery will be performed this morning.. but i'm not quite sure what is the exact time the surgery will take place..

but right now, i'm still in kl.. what can i do other than saying my prayers for now.. i will go back to my home town as soon as possible.. it will be this morning also...

i felt that this journey will be quite a long one since my thoughts is going far far away... even the distance and the speed of the car that i will drive tomorrow wont change a bit (minus the facts that i will push the car to the limit..ignoring the speed limit).. i will still be a long journey to me...

well, right now i just do hope that my dad will be safe during the surgery and will recover as soon as possible.. may be this only will look like a normal blog, but this is what i felt during all these day actually.. this is my true feeling.. what's inside me right now...

aNotHeR uNeXpecTeD iNciDenT

well... there's another thing that i think i should put in here..

i did post a few day ago or maybe a week ago about my dad admitted to the hospital...
well.. it's not good looking for him and our families right now.. last 2 days, he was sent to Penang General Hospital to do X-Ray on him... he said that he suffered from the knee injury, i dont know which part of it or anything to do with nerves or muscles or even the orthopedic case..
then suddenly, my sis told me that he had to do and operation.. at first, i thought that the operation will be done at his knee.. but, i guess i'm wrong..

then, she told me that my dad had to undergo an operation on his spinal bone, yess.. the backbone, that kept most of our nerve system from any injuries as long as we live.. but then, i was shocked.. why did he need to undergo a spinal bone sugery whereas he said that he only hurt at his knee..

then yesterday, when i was driving to Taman Melawati, i ask my grandma.. why did he suddenly had a backbone problem.. then my grandma said that, nearly 28 years ago, when my dad was not married with my mom yet, he suffered a back bone injury when he fell from a pole when he's doing his job.. at that time, he was working with LLN, now called TNBD..

i dont know when the sugery will be performed, but i sure do hope that my dad will be fine... as far as i know.. after the sugery, he need to take a leave nearly 4 month to fully recover and undergo fisiologi therapy.. i just hope and pray to Allah that he will be fine...

well, the last thing i heard is that the surgery will be perfomed this Friday, 1st july....

sOunDs FamiLIiar?

hua hua hua.. its already been a few days after my last blog.. erm,actually i'm in KL right now.. but it seems so boring to me.. the weather is too hot even you dont want to go out in the afternoon.. i guess it may be can reach 35-36 Degrees.. hell, its hot out there.. hehehe...

well, i'm sure that i wont go out at this time.. hehe.. it been a boring day to me.. I dont know what to do.. all this while, i just eat and eat only since i'm here.. hehehe.. luckily or maybe unluckily, my 'perut' dah bulat sket.. hahahha.. what to do.. all i'm doing is eat only.. hua hua hua.. i just went to play badminton only once.. it's was last wednesday i think.. hehehe.. but i'm able to play only 4 sets, coz lack of stamina and hung my racket for nearly 3 months.. isk.. that a long time of retirement..

well, i guess this is what i can came out on this hot sunny day.. hmm.. but what i'm doing now is counting down the days where my sweetie will be going far away from me... so sad... you are always on my mind sayang..

yare yare~~

well.. the semester break has already been for nearly 3 weeks.. i havent done anything yet though.. my life is full with eat and sleep.. that what i've been doing this past 3 weeks.. hahaha..

well, life never been happier than this.. but,i do have some sort of down emotions...
my sweetie have to work far far away from me.. she already been accepted to PETRONAS Carigali in KK.. wth,Kota Kinabalu.. (awat la jauh sgt.. isk...)

i still have to accept that shw is going away to work... although its quite far away from where i live.. not just quite, but really far away.. at the end of malaysia.. uwaaaaa....

but i do want u to know sayang.. i will alwiz remember and love u so much honey... work as hard as u learn.. but do take care of yourself...

Expect thE uNexPecTed

It was a hot sunny day in my hometown, Kulim.. it was nearly 12 pm when i woke up.. demm, it's really hot that time..

after i woke up, i do as the usual.. keeping the house.. and anything that i can do up until my mom can fetch me and go to my grandma's house..

then suddenly i got a phone call from my mom... she said that my dad is warded in BM.. WTH, he just look fine the day b4.. then i asked my mom where and when.. she said that my dad was admitted just a few minutes ago in BM Specialist Center.. luckily, he's not in serious condition but he said that he cant walk properly...

i just hope that my dad will be okay and recover as soon as possible..

out for now.. going to visit my dad...

*sigh*

today is another boring day for me.. ermm.. what to say ehh? tomorrow i got final paper.. demmit, although i study and study, seems it cant go inside my neuron cells in my brain buster.. i dont know why.. it seems that it cant accept anymore of these numbers.. for the whole 5 years, i only live with numbers since i'm an EE student.. arghhhh... waddahell happen here..

the network for the whole interconnection between villages were disconnected suddenly.. shiitt.. i wanna play cz since i cant study nemore.. arghhh.. why are you guys challenging us, as students..? you guys think we cant do any unthinkable?

but for now, i kept on remembering my sweetie.. what's she doing rite now? hmmm.. missing her so much.. hehehe... take care deary.. (cam lari tajuk lak part nieh :p)

i hope that i can answer my paper tomorrow.. really do hope so..

this what happen when...

demit.. the net is still sux ess.. i dont know y, but it seem the IT DEPT is trying to do something weird.. AGAIN.. arghhh... it makes my blood boiling more then 150 degrees celcius... (darah aku leh mendidih sampai tahap tuh ker.. /?)
isk.. how long shud i endure this kind of connection.. its been 4 years including this year that the internet has been supplied to the students in their room..

from what i know, this u have a another back up server that runs on LINUX.. which make it more stable than a normal server.. i guess.. it's more stable than this werver we are using which run on win server.. arghh.. i just like to bomb the IT DEPT.. looks like they werent do anything.. googling porn webs, save it in the hdd.. like i dont know.. i'm not that NAIVE.. suxx ess.. watching porno during work time.. totally suxx.. but going berzerk when students do the same.. y? coz dun want the students get more than they have.. hehehe.. sorry suckers, our DB have more than you guys can image.. u.. arrghhh.. no mood to curse you guys anemore... makes no difference at all...